Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Gig report

I can't seem to get it together to blog about my own performance. Luckily, Amar was there and he is more on the ball.

Check it out...

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Listen to No More Twist!

Did you miss the No More Twist! performance, live in the KFJC Pit on Thursday?
It's OK. You can still hear it on last.fm, or on Les' podcast.

The text is the exceedingly rockin' spoem "Nice to see you". It's a wonderful piece of spam poetry posted to the Spoetry Collectors email list in 2006.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

This reminds me of Paul a lot.

It's hanging up in a cafe where I go everyday for coffee. It's hard not to stare at it.

Any infringement of copyright is unintentional. If you don't believe me, go ahead and send Agent Mulder to arrest me.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Six months

I guess I am adapting somewhat, to my hideously shrunken universe.

I’m not exaggerating when I say that I didn’t believe I could go on living without Paul. I had joyfully and passionately made a lifetime commitment to him, and I didn’t make any move in the present without considering our future together. I didn’t have any concept of a future where he was not here.

But it seems like I have to acknowledge that I have actually gone on living without Paul, for six months. I still don’t know why or how. The will to survive persists. Even more baffling is how I have not only lived, but had successes, somehow. I’m not sure I am really even doing it. It seems to happen without my direct participation, at a distance.

I am deeply grateful to my family and friends for understanding how devastated I was and still am, and for giving me so much love and support.

I’m being made to understand that I am never going to “get over” what’s happened. And given the severity of it, I feel that’s appropriate. The best I can hope for is to get used to it. I don’t understand how I will do that, either, but what choice do I have?